The Explanation

Dear Baby

I am not sure how this affects your development but I'm sure that you won't be able to remember this when you grow up. However, this is Mommy's explanation.

Mommy is sick. Mommy loves you very very very much so she has to stay away from you as much possible to avoid transferring any bacterial infection to your young young body. Although you are still breastfed daily, Mommy is not willing to take the chance.

You turned 18 weeks old yesterday. For the past 3 days you have been looking at me with that same wide eyes. And on each passing day there will come a shadow of confusion and puzzled look on your face wondering why isn't Mommy bathing you in the morning, feeding you your bottle, nappy change, playing like we use to do every single day since you were born single-handedly. There are moments when you look at me rather sadly and slumped on your Wan's shoulders or cry in frustration when you saw me peeking into your cot but not able to pick you up for a cuddle.

Dear baby, it frustrates me even more yesterday when you refused to play on your own and all you want is to cling on someone. Mommy made faces and talked to you but you weren't very interested anymore. Tonight after breaking fast, and after you were put down to bed, Daddy and I went out and Mommy mentioned to Daddy that I think you miss me. Daddy responded, 'you think..? of course she does!' and that just breaks my heart even more.

Please know that Mommy is trying her very very best to get well as soon as she can but this nasty nasty flu is still bugging the hell out of me. Tonight I could only sleep for an hour and now all I could do is blogging and coughing like mad. I threw up twice and my nose is very runny.

Mama was convinced yesterday that you caught the bug from me. She's convinced that you're warm and has a fever. Mommy's instinct says you're strong and healthy. But we took you to the paed anyway. And of course he said you don't have a temperature and is healthy (also that you're 6kgs now!). But he gave some antihistamine just in case. I have good motherly instinct. I just need to learn to trust it. Don't you reckon?

Well baby. Mommy wishes and prays everyday she gets better and better so we can have our normal routine back again. You're not the only one missing it, sweetie. Now I need to rest and try to sleep and recover quickly!

Love, Mommy.

p/s: oh yes. You have mastered the rolling over skill few days ago. We have pictures awaiting to be uploaded =)